She was trapped by ISIS propaganda and wanted to escape from it. She felt angry because her uncle failed to cross the border, leaving her and her family in confusion.
She regretted that she put her family in danger, the propaganda was all a lie and she did not want her family to suffer in Syria, and felt responsible because she was the one who convinced her family to migrate to ISIS.
life in Syria was hard, she experienced injustice, although her family was together, as she wanted, she regreted her decision and really missed her hometown where everything was so much easier.
Her family asked to be returned to Indonesia, because they faced many hardships, and had difficulties adapting to ISIS rules.